Excerpt from Today

I guess if there’s anything I’m not prepare for

In this world

Oddly enough, and perhaphs my greatest fear

Change

I guess it is that thing

Good bye

I guess

Being familiar to the presence of someone

Someone whose voice

Whose frame

Whose eyes

The sound of their footsteps

Whose everything you used to recognize all the time

It’s just sad

Being away from the people

You used to talk to every day

Of all the wildests and craziest ideas

And catfights and petty teasing

Of inside jokes and humor

A joke or two

Those crazy number of hours

People you shared unforgettable moments with

People who were there at the best times of your life

Perhaps, maybe, change do scare me

Wondering whether you’re the only one feeling this way

Anxiety, nostalgia, sentimentality

No way to know

Back to the time

When the day wouldn’t end

And the day would not start without that person

And perhaps not just that person

I mean everyone

All of them

Friends

Bestfriends

Classmates

Acquaintance

Everyone

Pieces of me die everytime someone I used to know

Walk pass me

Without even saying anything

I mean, hello

Hi

Hey

Hey

Hey

HELLO

REMEMBER ME, CAUSE I DEFINITELY REMEMBER YOU

WAS ANY OF THAT EVEN REAL

DID ANY OF THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED

SOMEONE TELL ME 

CAUSE SOMEHOW I CAN’T SEEM TO TELL THE DIFFERENCE THESE PAST DAYS

HEY 

TALK TO ME

I WANNA TALK TO YOU

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR DAY

CAUSE I’M DYING TO KNOW

I’M SORRY OK

People who give meaning to your life

But are not meant to stay

Who would have thought that one day

We’re gonna end up here–

Strangers

A stranger with all my secrets

Who share all my best memories

Memories that I still keep playing and playing

And playing

Over and over inside my head

Trying to live every single second of everything

Wishing that moment was present

That it was still the real

Trying to squeeze every single detail of where the heck it all went wrong

Sad

Perhaps it was just inevitable

Who would have thought

And I didn’t

That’s why I guess it’s just so sad

So, so sad

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